I have always wanted to be able to express women's self-awareness. For this experience, I disregard my family’s opposition which I resigned from a stable work.
Even though it was not seems like luxuriant, it made me to have different feelings that my sweat and blood were mixed into cements, and I still remember how painful by the tails sharp.
All of the experiences made me to feel different feelings when stand on the edge of social expectations.
Half Identity
- Mosaic -
Art is seems like penance. During those three months, I raised my hand up and down more than ten thousands times.
My hands were injured by tiles and bricks. I was wearing the gloves at the beginning, but it is too hard to make the work in details.
I chose to deal with those crushed tiles by my naked hands until finished the whole process.
Besides my hands were full by wounds, I broke more than ten boxes of tiles by my arm.
At that time, I went home in the mid night and the body was covered with cement and dust.
half identity
— 2015, Taipei,Taiwan
It probably the most exhausting work I have been done. From my place to work I need to spend two hours every day. When the bus route was driving through China airline’s company, I always think that compare with the people, who have time zone difference and still need to have forced smile, even though they are beautiful airline stewardess. Who is more toilsome?
However, we are a woman, bearing the traditional value of Chinese culture. They expect me to have a stable job and then get married, pregnant or raise our next generation. My father always told me :‘‘ you are not a talent girl as well as you think, just do what you have to do! ’’ He exhorts me as a woman, I should be appreciate that I am luckier than Muslim. Do not focus on unfair.
I know that it is uncertainty of my choice which is right or wrong. Sometimes I want to have my own family too, but I can not bear to keep my life in this way which was controlled by others. I stand on the edge. Not willing to be kidnapped by the traditional values, but also can not live in a quiet life like other artists who are living in this valley.
half identity
— 2015, Taipei,Taiwan
I only know that I must be responsible for my own life. Thus, the process of this work for me is the most important. That is the reality which combined blood, hard sweat, tears and freedom which I defend.